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hermit kermit

Joshua's been thinking so much. too much for his own good in my opinion.
he always says i think too much ado about nothing. case of pot calling kettle black.

he's not been himself ------ sounds familiar?

which is then the true self? is it the one we see everyday or the quiet melancholic one at night?

the ego comprises of many identities. we each have the sweet angelic and the dark devilish side.
our will-power dictates the one in the driver's seat. listen to God, reach out your hand for His lead.
thus, i disagree with the existence of the true self. there's never "i've not been myself lately".
there's only "i've been neglecting the little voice of my inner devil. it's back with a vengence".

with accordance to the observation that people always lament that the world is a cruel place, yet they still live in it, accepting it as it is. why is that so?...

option 1: participate in revolutionary drastic establishment of new order? collapse of the old regime? the rise of new extremist political ideologies? bloodshed. violence. foreign intervention in domestic polices. civil war.

option 2: thou it's a cruel world, hold out hope for a better world. HOPE keeps men alive, DREAMS motivates men to achieve higher goals. participate in various gradual changes, adopt the feedback system and work behind the scenes while keeping prominent power figure heads in place albeit that they're antiquated so as to not cause social disequilibrium.

option 3: end one's life. since the world is a cruel place and life is not worth living. then die. the world have too many insignificant people who takes up the scarce space and resources.

how do you know when faced with a real crisis? is it a crisis or you imagine it to be one?
making a mountain out of a molehill.

i don't know. crisis. unless the earth breaks apart and buildings start toppling like Lego blocks.
imagined crisis? well, i have too much on my mind about school, job and family.
staunch devotees in retail therapy do not bother about crisis.
coz if a crisis strikes, they still wanna look their best. indulge themselves before death.
when a crisis comes, it doesn't forewarn you. thus, why speculate? hmmm....

Joshua now wonders whether he should not just bother about anything and anyone.
don't be affected by what people say or think. don't bother about people's judgements.
be a hermit.hahaa... welcome to the club. renounce everything and everyone. live material world behind.be a hermit and live high above the rest, in the woods where the trees are green and fresh pine scent fills your senses.

i've always chosen that route to hermit isolation. reclusion that is.
one more enlightened soul. welcome welcome!

but i must re-emphasize that, i may seek a hermit's life but in luxurious comforts.

i want to go shopping!
MNG ZARA LEVIS.

i need a vacation badly!
Hong Kong. Perth. Bali Beach Resort.
no, i don't want to work as muych as i am broke. haha!

i want to club!
it's been ages since i last stepped into Zouk or Velvet.

life is so not happening lately.
i am so not happening too!































































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posted by Veen @ 21:32